April 14, 2016
It's been a long few months worrying about things, but I finally got enough from my doctor's for me to feel okay about ACTUALLY trying for Baby Hoek 2.0! Literally JUST got back from my latest appointment and I feel pretty comfortable with trying now. I'm always going to worry, that's pretty much just what I do nowadays, but at least there are no immediate concerns right now.
I'm hoping it won't take too long. As I'm sure I've said before, being pregnant was certainly not my favorite thing. But we got an amazing Jules out of it, so if I have to do it again, I guess I can push through. Right now, it is about two years exactly from when Jules would have been conceived (hush, gutter heads!), so if we are crazy enough to get preggers right away, they'll be around the same birthdate. I kind of hope it takes a LITTLE bit longer than right now but we'll see. It may not happen as fast this time, what with my insane ball of stress lately but who knows. so for the first time...
Dear Baby 2.0
I don't think you are there yet. But if by some weird chance you are, I LOVE YOU already. Your daddy will love you so much, and your sister will too, although she won't get it for awhile at first. I hope to meet you soon... well, in 10 months or so, anyway ;)
Love, Mommy
P.S. Julie looked me in the eyes with the biggest grin on her face and said "Mama!" right at me. She always refuses to say it, though I know she can. I hugged and kissed her and told her to say it again. Instead she gave me a big cheesy grin. I'll take that as a no ;)