Feeling Fat

September 8, 2014

Though pregnancy hasn't been TOO bad for me (although definitely not very pleasant either), one of the worst things to worry about is getting fatter. It took me quite a bit of time to really start showing-- I think it was around 18 weeks or so--but now that I am, I'm starting to feel very chunky. I've definitely gained a lot of weight. And though I asked Dr. Lown if I'm on track (he says yes), I still worry I'm going to get pretty huge. I'm not the best at eating well, though I have been munch fruit as often as possible at least, and TRY To pay attention to what I'm eating when I'm not craving anything in particular, but sometimes I just feel like a blimp.

Friday for instance, I was busy all day and it was so hot and humid that when we went out to the comedy club, I just threw on a T-shirt and maxi skirt and called it good. Looking at myself in the mirror at the B.O.B. didn't do much for my confidence (nor did standing next to my skinny sister, but still ;). Although the next day, I chose my outfit a little more carefully and I felt okay. Whatever. Body image is hard for every lady. I just know I've got THREE MORE MONTHS of growing to do.

Next month (a month from yesterday, actually), I'm having my maternity photos done, and I REALLY hope I don't feel too massive by then. That would make me sad. Mike says my face isn't any bigger, which is what I worry about the most. I definitely have the back fat going on, and my thighs and arms are showing signs of fatness, but hopefully I will not get too huge.

We'll see how I feel come the new year. I really hope they weren't kidding about breastfeeding weight loss, because it's not going to be easy to get out of the house to exercise!