Saturday, January 31, 2015

One Month Old

January 30, 2015 

Julie Jules is one month old! It's so hard to believe it's already been a month since she came into the world. I'm getting the idea of this "mom" business, though it's not easy to do all the time. Jules and I are getting used to each other and she's starting to show her personality already. I can't wait for some of her next big steps, especially smiles, giggles and sleeping for longer stretches!


















































Since I want to keep track of Julie's growing self, I'm starting a set of photos in addition to her weekly ones on the furry rug; for her monthly photos, we're sitting on Mama's pretty yellow chair with her Almost Petey Kitty to show how much she is growing. There will also be her FULL sessions (by Mommy) for 3-, 6-, 9- and 12-months, but for now, here's her one month photos!








Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Julie - Week 4

January 28, 2015

Little baby has had a few rough nights, but last night and the night before, she actually slept pretty well for us. She's definitely getting bigger, and she's such a pretty little girl, even if she gets mad pretty easy on occasion (like right now!). She got to meet another of her Great Grandma's this week, and on Friday she will be one month old! Mama has been keeping up with her weekly photos, and on Friday I'm going to do her one month photos, which should be pretty cute if I can get them to work well. I can't wait to see all the photos at the end of the year!

Though it's kind of nice being able to be home with baby every day, I'm pretty sure stay-at-home mommying is not for me. I've had fun but by the time Mike gets home at night, I'm okay with passing her off. I think the occasional day off with her will be great. And until the end of February, I will enjoy what I've got! I am starting up doing photo sessions again (I've done three in a week already!) so it's nice to be able to get out of the house. Aunt Kara and I are getting pedicures tonight too and I MIGHT go get a massage tomorrow if I have the time (baby is going to Grandma Charyl's so I can go to a meeting at Dooge). We will see!

Here are this week's photos!







Sunday, January 25, 2015

Breast Feeding

January 25, 2015

As I told everyone who asked me, I tried breastfeeding. Just under four weeks in, it's over. I am definitely sad that things didn't work out, but I just wasn't able to go the distance. From the beginning, I've gone back and forth on wanting to stop and feeling horrible for it, to trying to push through but not succeeding by much. So many people, starting with the first lactation nurse that visited (and hurt me) in the hospital, almost make you feel bad about not doing it, or thinking about giving the baby formula. But there were also a lot of others, including my family, a couple of the other nurses at the hospital and especially Mike, were very supportive and understanding. Our pediatrician was one of these, and didn't think anything bad of me for not exclusively breastfeeding Julie. I'm finally okay with having finally stopped.

At first, it was okay until my nipples got cracked and incredibly sore. I eventually got through that and was able to do the breastfeeding thing fairly normally for about a week, but then I began to get this odd sensation every time that I fed her. It was like a restless leg syndrome type feeling mixed with a really itchy sensation in my boobs. It got to the point that when I started getting that feeling, I almost wanted to scream (I did a couple times) and had to do everything I could not to take her off and stop feeding her. When my mom and grandma came to visit while Mike went on a two day work trip, I decided to just pump. So much better. But as the next week or so went on, I went from 4 oz per hour long pumping session, I was down to 1 oz for the same amount of time. Drying up already. And as of today, if I got a drop out of either side...

Though I really do like not having to worry about pumping or feeding her that way, I do feel guilty that I can't feed her all the important stuff my breast milk has for her. I have heard that the first two weeks are the most important, and she got a good amount of breast milk for that period of time at least, so that's good. It was worth the trouble, and I sincerely hope that it was enough to do her as much good as I could.

On a more happy note, Julie met her two best boys, Logan and Mason, yesterday. The Welmerink's had been sick for a few weeks but were finally healthy and came to meet their new little lady. Mason is still pretty young but he thought she was neat. He kept running around and saying "Baby!" at her, and gave her a few little pokes in the butt with his finger every once and awhile. Logan, on the other hand, LOVED her! He is big enough to hold her if he sits down and has someone nearby. He held her so carefully and even gave her kisses and held her hand. He was pretty amazed with her. So adorable. Check out the photos below!





Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Julie - Week 3

January 20, 2015

Another doctor's appointment today. Little Miss has grown just two ounces shy of her birth weight plus one pound. Now that I'm looking back at photos from even just a week ago, she has grown! So exciting. She's still been sleeping pretty well for us, although she's starting to have more fussy streaks when she is awake. As long as she doesn't end up with colic, I'm sure we'll manage okay. She's met a few more people, and I THINK we are planning on finally going to Dooge tomorrow to meet everyone. We'll see!






Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Jules - Week 2

January 14, 2015

Our first week was busy busy, getting used to each other any everything. Jules is a good girl and sleeps quite a bit. I had a rough time with breast feeding, and finally decided this week that I wasn't going to be able to stand it. However I'm still pumping twice a day to make sure that the baby gets some antibodies from me.

Today, Jules met her two best friends, Olivia Lewis and Ellie Moe. Kristin and Angie brought their little ladies over to visit and the girls even had a photo shoot! Well, of course! I can't wait for these girls to grow up together. It's going to be so much fun.










Saturday, January 3, 2015

She's Here! Welcome, Julianna Rose Hoekstra!

January 3, 2015

It's so exciting, we FINALLY had our little one! I was waiting forever. And even though it was only 3 days past my due date, it was hard to wait. On Monday morning last week, I was laying in bed, fairly awake at 6am and decided to start timing the pains I was having. They weren't bad by any means, but they felt like the could be contractions. And they were coming 5 to 6 minutes apart. I told Mike, we woke up Mom (who was still here from Christmas, waiting for Little Miss), I took a quick shower and we headed to the hospital.

Though by the time we got me into triage, my contractions more or less had stopped (though I was at about 3 cm), my blood pressure was SUPER high. Though it had been good, and was pretty much okay the last few weeks, they diagnosed me right there with pre-eclampsia, and decided to admit me and induce. I was a little nervous, but not enough to have caused my BP to be that high, so it was a good thing we went in that morning, I would image. They immediately started me on some drugs, stuck a catheter in me (which was very uncomfortable at first, but a Godsend later) and put me in my delivery room. They started me on the Pitocin to get the labor going again, and it worked pretty quickly. However, I was in for quite a few more hours of labor and a LOT stronger contractions.

Dad made it down pretty quickly (thankfully the weather was good!) and I started having some tough pains. Some of them were hard to handle, and I glared very angrily at the wall outlet across the room when they came on. I was pretty proud of myself for muscling through them. Everyone was around helping me keep my mind on other things so that was nice. I finally decided to get the epidural when the nurses suggested I was getting to a good point to do it. That was really scary for me. The anesthesia nurse held me really tight while they put the needle in and that was very helpful. The epidural was great because it pretty much put me to sleep for awhile. They even let me get a nap in after Ron and Charyl made it to the hospital (Mike and Lenore couldn't make it because Mike had a bad cold/flu, I felt so bad!).

I was in labor for 17 hours before it was time to start pushing. The labor nurse was very helpful, and she and Mike helped me with my legs when I pushed. Mom gave me ice chips up by my head while they did that. The contractions weren't very close together, 4 or 5 minutes or so, but I was 10 cm so it was time to go! We pushed for almost 2 hours before she was all the way down. She crowned finally and I am glad no one told me what THAT was going to be like because that was the worse. And I had to wait for the next contraction, which were still really far apart. The doctors and nurses FINALLY came in then and I was begging them to get her out. When they did, I guess I hemorrhaged for a bit but they got me under control. I had a brand new little lady on my chest. So crazy. I still don't have my head wrapped around it. She was doing amazing and pretty much has been since so I was so so happy about that, even if I did get ripped up in the nether regions (ouch!)

We were in the hospital until New Years Day, and it was a little tough at times. Mike was and has been amazing with her. It's so cool to see him with her. Adorable. We've butted heads about a few things so far (and breastfeeding is a challenge but I'm getting it) but mostly it's fairly smooth sailing. She was fussy her first night (it was a little rough!) but otherwise she's been so great. She loves to be held and rocked and cuddled, she eats a lot now and I'm still working on getting better at that. Mom and Grandma (who came down yesterday) think that she's got her days and nights mixed up, based on last night's challenging bedtime (Mike and Grandma worked for a couple hours with her while I was resting, but she just needed her mama :), but I think she's the bestest :)

I call Julianna a few different names of course, my favorite of which is Smooshy or Smoosh, and I also call her Julie Jules, cuz that's cute. Kara has been over most days to hang out and we've had lots of visiting friends! I'm worried about her getting sick but she's been good so far. I'm sure I'll be worried for the rest of my life!

I hope I didn't forget anything too much, but that should do for now! Daddy is currently cuddling baby after her latest meal, and she's chucking her head around like a little pro. So strong already! I'll try to keep up with the blog as much as I can, but for now, my eyes are hardly open anymore! Time to get some more rest!

P.S. Though Pete is still not sure what Jules is, he's being great so far. Phew! I was nervous about his reaction to his new friend.

Photos below, all from my iPhone, but I'll work on some new ones with my good camera soon!

^In our labor and delivery room!

^My first photo of Smoosh :)

^Mama holding her little one.

^Auntie Kara and her baby buddy.

^She's so adorable!

^Bonding time with Daddy.

^Showing off her strong neck with Grandma Patti.

^Ready to go home on New Year's Day!

^Trying out her bed!

^I'm awake, but no one else is!

^Auntie Ica came back to visit (after being down the day before she was born) to meet Julianna.

^Making a poop for Mama, her first solo poopy diaper mission.

^Loving her Grandma and her pjs

^Mama is still trying to feel all normal ;)

^What a beaut!

^Great Grandma Wanda was waiting for a great grandbaby for SOOOO long!

^Daddy/daughter skin-to-skin time :D